So, I am from Dramatown. The thing is about that place, most of the drama known isn't as bad as the drama behind the closed doors.
I was 11 when the first time happened. At that point I had no mother with me. It was just my dad and I. I know it isn't pleasant. But I was scared one night and I needed to sleep in the same room as my dad. Just so everyone knows, I developed everything at the age of 10. I was very young and maturing very fast. Little did I realize it was going to end up the worst thing that happened to me.
I curled in bed with my dad cause I was crying about my mother. I laid next to him and it was the first time he took advantage of me. I didn't know what was happening. I just let it happen cause I didn't know it was wrong. I was young and didn't know better. My parents never told me about sex at that point. I personally think my father planned it that way.
Living in a small town was unhelpful. I was the quiet little girl in the corner with a rich daddy. Everyone made sure they were nice to me, but I was always silent. I never liked talking except to my best friend. Even she didn't know what was going on with me.
I was 13 when I finally figured out everything because of the news. I asked my grandmother what everything was and she was very honest. I had no questions after that. I knew that my dad could be put in jail for what he did, but that was only if I spoke up.
I didn't speak up. It continued to happen until he remarried. Of course, he stopped after that cause he had a hooker as a wife. She was perfect for him. The good news is, I got away from him right after I learned what he did. He also then became abusive, but that's another story. I may have never spoken up, but I think living my life now is worth it as long as I'm away from him.
~Welcome to My Rushed Insanity! ~
